What happened? This is the question I often ask myself daily.
How did I get here?
Why do I feel this way?
Now, I am not saying I am on the verge of a breakdown… although there are some days that statement might be true. What I am trying to share is that I often find myself wondering what happened that has changed so much the past 2 years!? Was it the move? Was it me returning to work full time? Is it the mid-west mindset? What happened?
When we were living in California, I was a busy stay at a home mom. My daily life was routine and mundane: wake, homeschool the boys, run and workout, referee fights.
Now that we live in Missouri our life is equally as busy (if not more). Our daily life is one big blur of chaos: school, work, practices, sports games, referee fights and more. Did you notice something missing… something crucial for my sanity?
Running and working out. Somehow I have managed to make it not a priority. It isn’t in my daily routine. My normal. It is gone… missing. What happened?
Do I have time to run and workout? Yes.
Do I want to run and workout? Yes.
Then why is it when I find a chunk of time that would fit in our busy schedule to run or workout… I would rather sit and read a good book or tinker around the house?
Am I lazy? Did I lose my workout mojo?
Is it true what they say… Use it or lose it? Have I officially lost my desire for fitness?
I now totally understand when people say, “I am just too tired to workout when I get off work.” or “I don’t have time.”
Life is crazy busy. When life is busy… especially when life is busy… we have to make time for ourselves and that includes fitness.
I have not made me a priority the past few months… at least in the health and fitness department.
Do I still run? Yes. Do I still eat healthy? Sometimes.
So what can I do now?
I have noticed the discrepancy… realized that I need a change… want the change.
*I* am capable of more than *I* know. Now it is time to do something about it.
So… do I get out of my pajamas (on my day off) and put on workout clothes to do a workout or do I sit and snuggle up to my boys as they watch a movie?
I guess it all boils down to how bad do I really want to reach my goals and feel better?
How do YOU get back on track after SO MUCH time off? Do you use an accountability group?
I am not sure how it all happened… but I will admit, I want my old ‘fitness excited’ self back.