I had a light bulb moment this past weekend. An a-ha moment if you will, for my journey.
The past few years have been SUPER stressful in our family (multiple moves, pregnancy and raising children, buying and selling a home, praying fervently with the decision to pull the boys from public school to homeschool. HOMESCHOOLING. Training for marathons. Missing family. Solo parenting. Moving cross country. Praying fervently (always) about the decision to put the boys in public school. And so much more!)
I realize (now) that I had been ‘self medicating’ my unhappiness with food… when I should have been filling myself with HIM (God’s Word) instead of the junk I was filling my tummy with.
I realize (now) that I was running away from my “problems” by not only running but by not addressing the root issue.
I was not happy.
I was trying to do it all on my own (yes, I have a husband … but he could only do so much).
When I get overwhelmed with life, struggles, successes… I need to plug in to Him. Talk to Him. Cast my cares on Him. For He cares for me… and knows the desires of my heart.
My body is my temple. It is my job to take care of it.
My life goal is to plug in to HIM when I am weary, first. Not to self-medicate with stuff (sugar/junk). I will combat my old habits with these healthy eating go-to scripts: God has given me a power over my food choices. I am supposed to consume food. Food isn’t supposed to consume me.
I love LysaTerkeurst (and all her Bible studies). It is time for me to break out my Made To Crave study book and devotional once again!
Abby @ BackAtSquareZero says
Last night I self medicated with 3 movie theater size boxes of candy, 3! They were on sale at CVS and I bought all 3 and a pint of B&J ice cream and ate them all on my couch. Like a 3,500 calorie binge of self medication, followed by awful feelings. Uggghhhhh
I need to get out of this cycle. Great timing on this post.
Rachel says
Hugs mama! I totally TOTALLY!!! know the feeling (both the binging and feeling of regret). I am doing my best to NOT buy it… because if it isn’t in the house, I more than likely will not be eating it. xoxo
Kelly says
great post. I learned many basic skills for changing doing a health based bible study called First Place. I didn’t make the changes immediately but years later God graced me with the power and dedication to change. To put him first everyday. healthier than ever at 44!
Janice @ Fitness Cheerleader says
Big big hugs! I’m happy to hear that you’ve found a better coping strategy to replace unhealthy eating, keep me posted on how it helps, cheers!
Tammy says
Love this Rachel! I tend to do the same things – good or even running or my ministry become my idols before going to God. Ugh. Thank goodness He is patient with us and His love is never failing!