Hi, my name is Rachel and I am addicted to SUGAR. Yes, this might seem like a silly thing to be addicted to, but I struggle with my sugar consumption. I buy it. I eat it. I hide it. I lie about how much I eat of it. I know it is bad for me, yet I keep consuming it. My body craves it. When I don’t have it, I get cranky. Eating things with sugar in it make me happy. I am addicted to sugar.
I have always loved sugar and sweets. I remember coming home from school (think junior high school) and needing a sugar fix. I would get a spoon and round up a tablespoon of raw sugar and eat it from the spoon. *Gasp* Pure sugar into my bloodstream for an afternoon pick me up. I was maybe 12 years old.
I buy sugar laden sweets for myself and then I hide it from my children and husband. I rationalize that this is for them. Yet rarely (if ever) share with them. The only time I share with them my secret stash is when I am caught… or they have spotted the sugar goodness tucked in the back of the cupboard.
When I have gone with out my sugar snacks, I twitch. Not necessarily physically… but more figuratively… thinking about and figuring out a way to get my next sugar fix. Where can I drive to buy cookies? What can I bake in my house to get my fix? Addicted and always thinking about the next sugar high.
Unfortunately, my weight has suffered from this sugar addiction. My weight has increased to a number that I haven’t seen in 2 years. I am still physically fit (able to run and lift like normal). However, I am positive my insides are not as healthy.
I am admitting this to you today, because I am wanting (and seeking) accountability on ditching the sugar high. The sugar fix. The addiction. I need help.
I know the holidays are full of sugar laden sweets and treats. With New Year’s right around the corner, and so many on the health and fitness band wagon… I decided to do my best to give up sugar and sweets.
This is going to be super hard! And to be successful I needed to come clean and share my struggle with you.
I will not be sharing weight/scale photos (because I have been down that route and know that that isn’t motivating for me). However, I would love feedback, accountability and motivation on this journey.
I want to eat healthy. I desire to be healthy (inside and out). I want to be sugar free.